as a shameless omnivore, i would like to take this moment to spread some blessing around. this is a plea to the divine mother/father on behalf of all the animals that have given their lives to support the nourishment of all humanity. thank you so much for giving them life, may all of their incarnations be blessed, we are so grateful to have the physical support of our natural environment. happy thanksgiving everyone, may we all receive similar blessing, for we too are giving our very lives to support the continuance of this beautiful illusion.
Great Creator, Hear My Prayer November 21, 2006
I am praying for miracles right now. I would love to shed this trivial preoccupation with my reality as it is and move into the next level of awareness. I’m thinking about astral travel on a mass scale. I’m thinking about letting go of our third dimensional obsession and getting through to the heart. What is it that must be said in order to change the minds of the powers that be? It is that utterance in particular I am praying finds the right lips to whisper into the right ears at the right time. I pray for the perfect prayer, the prayer that ends all suffering and conflict. There has got to be a “magic word/words”. All life is a reflection of intention, actions are reflections of intent, words are actions and the vibrations take up space. I have no attachment to world peace, my ego will not be allowed that liberty. It means so much to me that all of humanity moves on to the next level of enlightenment that my entire body is reacting to this point in time in this manner.
We are passing into the age of aquarius in the next few years we will be seeing more and more change in our entire way of life. This is the time that prophets have waited for. This is a time of transition back into a Golden Age. It will be unlike any our species has encountered because evolution occurrs on all levels of life. Feel love and mind your intentions.
I am writing this tonight because it is the New Moon of November and a very powerful night indeed. We have Seen the Sun the Moon and Five planets all in Scorpio at one time. I’m riding this energy like a wild stallion and projecting love with all of my might. New Moons are wonderful times to set the intent of the next twenty eight days, and i want to see this next month fall away in peace like the dried leaves of a flower blowing off in a gentle breeze. September was freaky, October was intense, and November is a time to hold whatever kin you have around you closeby. Feel comradery, feel family, feel close because you are. You are all that you see and all that you don’t see. This is the theme of the next two thousand years. One with Infinity. How cool is that? How can we be lost if this is our kingdom? How can we feel isolated when we are a part of infinity?
On a completely different note, i want to share a bit of wisdom with the living……It has come to my attention that “ghosts” can be injured by the simple glance of the living. Yes, it hurts ghosts when you look at them. Imagine us having lazer beam sight, and that will explain why most ghostly encounters are more like flashes of light. They’re trying to get out of your line of sight. Soooooo, if you want to speak to a lost relative, or conjure up a spirit in general it is simply polite to do so in as dark of a place as possible. And wear a blindfold. Explain to said spector that you understand the “rule” about seeing them and you’ll have better chances in your pursuits with the spirit world.
Also on that note….When you are in a particularly ghost filled area and your blood suddenly runs cold with fear, Fear Not. You are simply feeling the fear of the ghosts. You are resonating with them. The more afraid you are, the more afraid they are and it’s right about then (if possible)that I reccomend whipping out the blindfold or dismantling the flashlight. Mock me if you dare…..and see if I care……
We are all One Beautiful Experience November 12, 2006
Ahhhh. The hot Kailua Kona mornings….Took the kids to Jamba Juice for a breakfast smoothie, then on over to Jeans Warehouse (Sundays they always have a 50% sale on their already low priced trendy clothes) to get my little princess a new outfit. It’s been a couple of months since I’ve taken her shopping, it’s the least that I can do, she’s the light of my life and my reason for living. Then we rolled on to my exes home and my youngest fell asleep like a sweet baby, so here I sit.
Kailua is so freaking warm. It generally only gets to 84 degrees or so during the day (every day of the year) but I swear it feels much hotter. My children and I live in South Kona, in a neighborhood called “Kona Paradise”. There’s probably a thousand foot raise in elevation, and the weather is much more mellow, each day coming to the mid seventies with quite a bit more precipiation. I’ll take some time to fill in a few blank areas and tell you why I’m sitting lotus fashion on a tile floor in Kona instead of in my own house right now. My sons’ father lives here in Kona, and he keeps my boy on Wednesday nights, then again on Friday evening to Sunday afternoon. I moved out of my house the end of September, my sons father also moved out of his condo and into a house about a mile away. It’s a monster house, with three master bedrooms, open beam ceilings, a full length screened in lanai (my girl just came in and proudly modeled her new ensemble, she’s so cute) and a large kitchen. We’ve been staying here through the month of October, I could have couch surfed around South Kona but I thought it was more appropriate to stay here for the childrens sake. Relatively speaking, that is, for my ex and I are chronically incompatible and the month was nothing less than a very uncomfortable emotional rollercoaster that left us both drained. It brought up alot of old baggage, it surfaced alot of less than savory emotions I’d taken great care in burying. It also gave way to some serious healing, but by the time I moved into our new place ten days ago I felt like an old WWII bomber coasting onto the landing strip after a battle,and chanting “thank you God”. Metaphorically speaking, my engines were shot out and on fire, the landing gear was stuck, and half the crew was injured. I’m telling you, I moved into this house on a wing and a prayer.
My son is three years old and his speech is behind for his age. His comprehension is perfect, his hearing is just fine, and he’s very much an intelligent little boy who either chooses not to speak or just doesn’t hold it as a priority. Because of this “need” of his, he was released from the two child care providors we’d found for him, one after the other. His inability to communicate efficiently frustrates him at times and he’s been prone to hit other children and frequently throw temper tantrums. I also believe he’s learned the hostility from the son of his first babysitter who was known for his erratic behavior, and also from the hostility he’s experienced in his own home.
Because I lost my childcare provider, I was unable to continue working on the farm that I’d been living on. Because the house my children and I lived in is “workers quarters” another person came in to run the farm and I lost my home. This has been unbelievably frustrating, and then living with my ex on top of it was almost more than I could handle. He has a custom tile installation business, and makes a large amount of money. Until the beginning of this month he’s paid two hundred a week for child support. That amount has covered my groceries, but I still have car insurance and an old credit card bill. When I was working it wasn’t a problem, but when I lost my job the entire situation became much more complicated. I tried my hand at exotic entertainment and the money was good, but it left me in a compromised position as far as my credibility as a mother was concerned. So on faith, I quit that job and am now staying home with my son full time.
This whole affair was very confusing and I grew more and more depressed throughout October, wondering what I should do. After a very intense spiritual awakening, not to mention a heart to heart talk with a friend I respect deeply, it dawned on me that I needed to lean on my sons father more than I have been. If I was to contiue as the child care provider for my own boy my ex needed to help me make that possible. Eventually he agreed to cover my monthly expences as long as I was taking care of our baby and this is our first month under this new arrangement. The month of October was a mixed blessing, chaotic but positive in that my son feels much more secure with my constant presence. His speech has improved dramatically, he’s much more peaceful and well behaved.
A week ago I was worried about how my boy was going to handle yet another transition into this new house and returning to our “back and forth” custody arrangement. I know he’s gotten used to me being with him, and I’ve committed myself to remaining by his side until I feel like he’s truly comfortable. It would be easier if he could discuss his feelings with me, but thus far he doesn’t so I’m going to do what I feel I need to until he does so. Right now my daughter and I will stay by my son’s side and come to Kona with him on his nights with his daddy, like his personal entorage. I feel a little wierd about it, but my heart is very much at peace with the decision, and I will continue with this as long as my heart feels it’s appropriate.
Because he’s taken on the responsibility of two homes, my ex is working this weekend and wants to hang with his only child this evening also. My sweet baby girl doesn’t have school tomorrow so it’s no inconvienience to any of us except for the simple fact that we prefer our own beds to the hide-a-bed. No biggie, it’s worth it to see my boy supported in every way possible. So Kona it is for anothe night that I bask in your sweltering glory, and on the ‘morrow I will gather my babes and make my thirty minute pilgrimage home again. Until Wednesday, that is.
Adieu, Adieu, and muuuch love to all of infinity. May we walk hand in hand into our greatest potential. Blessings to us all.
oooooh those coronal mass ejections! November 10, 2006
my daughter has been craving a scary movie experience, and being the dragon that i am……i brought home “polterguist”. you know, it’s only rated PG. There aren’t any boobies, no gratuitous gore, but it’s still-to this day-a scary ass movie. my daughters friend freaked out during the scene where the tree eats the little boy, my daughter made it a little longer (i truly believe she would have made it through the entire movie, but she wanted to hang out with her buddy), and i was the lone wolf who watched it all the way through. then i had nightmares about monster tequila worms and psychic midgets.
compared to the horror movies of the present, this was pretty soft core. i mean, the tree was obviously foam rubber, and the ghosts were relatively benign in appearance. compared to “the grudge”, “saw”, ” hostel”, etc., it’s a movie for the old folks. if there is a truly evil presence in the world i do believe it has taken control of the media and is flourishing profusely in the horror movie industry. i mean, there’s “scary”……and then there’s “disturbing”.
maybe it’s always been this way. maybe each generation ups the ante and i just can’t take the new stuff.
INTERESTING POINT: the next time you relax in front of the tube, that is if you watch tv at all, pay attention to the emotions that you feel throughout the program and any commercials or advertisements you might see. i’ve noticed that media in general tends to provoke a wide range of negative responses including (but not limited to) inferiority, inadequacy, jealousy, melancholy, and a bit of paranoia……and we wonder why we’re so sad. the media is always telling us about how much less money we have in comparison to the assholes that make the movies and sitcoms, how much less attractive we are than the actors they hired, and how our true identity is that of the CONSUMER – to be baited with propaganda, trapped by our own minds, and harvested in every way possible.
peace, love, and tons of good crap everybody!!! do what you gotta do, remember your true beauty, and get ready for the age of aquarius!
Arrrgh! You Scurvey Dog! November 8, 2006
So stoked to have this blessing of free Internet access. Apparently the neighbor has it, and I’m very honored to use it. I will now download some free music from cnet. Life is good. I believe Mercury will be passing in front of the sun in about fifteen minutes, though I will not look to see for sure. Mercury’s retrograde cycle has left me without anything to say. Much love to all of infinity, may it carry us to our greatest potential.
Just Another Day in Paradise? November 2, 2006
Waiting for the next big thing….Last week I had the great pleasure of catching Mister Roland Frost on his weekly Astrological show (his link is posted here, you can download his shows, definetly worth looking at). I have been pathologically avoiding his broadcast, and finally managed to remember when it was on this week. Funny thing, really, I’ve been very isolate the last month and have barely communicated with anyone. I haven’t done a radio show (But I’ll see you this Saturday MORNING -YAY!!), that’s how it goes when you are homeless and living thirty miles from your social life. Anyways, Roland has been a fixture on the Friday Evening spot for quite some time, he does the “weekend astrological forecast and general talk story” and it’s been a highlight in my life since it began. I never called Roland to cancel when I stopped the shows, I knew I didn’t need to because he probably read it in the stars and already knew it. He’s freaky like that.
Am I rambling? I’ll get to my point.
Anyways, his show airs on wednesdays and fridays and this last wednesday i caught his show for the first time. It was the bomb, he discussed a little virus that’s going around the islands right now. Says it starts with a sore throat, little tightening in the chest, maybe a cough, and it’s followed by a bout of anxiety and or depression that can last anywhere from a month to six. Apparently it’s a virus that affects the brain, and some of our troops brought it home from Iraq, hmmmm. According to a reliable source, it arrived in Honolulu in May and it hit Roland a couple of months ago. I remember when he became ill, and watched his personality change.
Okay, I just stopped this entry to do the Scorpio Outlook (the entry below this one- LOOK AT IT), and now I’m pooped. There was so much more than just a virus that roland talked about, and I will get into it the next time I do an entry. It’s going to be a very intense month, everybody look out for lot’s of environmental activity around the New and Full Moons, the fifth and the twentieth. I’ll check in soon. Much love.
Oh Scorpio…An outlook for the birthday bug November 2, 2006
I will begin to highlight the astrological spotlight until I do it no longer.
DID YOU KNOW? Second only to Cancer, a Scorpion Moon promises good germination and swift growth. In Scorpio, prune for bud development…..eh?!?
Scorpio this is your year through March 2007, atleast a general guideline to help you along. Just before Holloween, Venus (love, pleasure, fine art)begins a three week passage through Scorpio (intense, secretive, ambitious). This promises to be one of the happiest times all year for social activity. Prepare love charms and philters at the sabbat. A lost love may return to become a treasured friend. Accept invitations or plan a party. The New Moon On November 20 is an ideal time to make any kind of commitment. December finds the sector of finances and material security emphasized by a groupingof Sagittarius planets (friendly, expansive), and you’ll want to shop. There are some treasures you simply must have. On December sixth Saturn (responsibility, maturity, realities) turns retrograde in your career sector. Follow traditioons, rules, and regulations. A conservative approach is best regarding work. At the winter solstice (December 21) purchase a new clock or watch for the coven stead. Honor the magic of time.
In late December Mercury (communication, intellect, skills) joins the Sun (birth sign, ego, and identity) and Venus in your third house (communications, siblings), making you a bit restless. Some variety would be appreciated as New Year’s Eve nears. A change of scene should refresh and inspire. At Candlemas (February 2)prepare a ritual to promote peace and harmony at home. Through the remainder of the winter a variety of Aquarius (inquisitive, unpredictable) transits including the Sun and Mars (energy, challenges, sports) will motivate you to make positive changes in homelife andd living arrangements.
HEALTH
The March 29 Eclipse impacts your vitality. Be aware of how your body responds to diet and exercise habits. Springtime favors making changes aimed at health improvement. Candle burning can be an effective technique to promote wellness. As the color, light, and heat mingle, the lit candle will generate an energy field. Dedicate it to health by rubbing it with patchouli oil, your sacred aromatherapy. Try a blue candle for safety, a red one for strength, or a white one for release from grief and for peace of mind.
LOVE
The last few years have marked an interesting but erratic time in your social life. Volatile Uranus has been in your love sector, creating unexpected meetings and partings. You may have experienced a change of heart. Allow love connections to develop while you explore and reflect. Take time to be certain of what it is you truly desire. Don’t commit on a whim. Since Pisces, ruler of the feet, governs your romance and pleasure sector, going dancing can create the climate for true love. Pisces, also suggests that romance can be discovered on a beachside stroll or while learning to sail or scuba dive. April, late July through Mid August, and November bring favorable Venus influences. Social prospects are especially promising during those times.
SPIRITUALITY
With Sentimental, nostalgic Cancer ruling your ninth house of spiritual thought, touring historical districts can impact your spirituality. Explore archeological sites linked to worship. Lear about the values of those who have gone before. Keepsakes and momorabilia can have a spiritual significance for you. Practice psychometry on vintage photos or jewelry. Keep a journal of encounters you’ve sensed with ghosts. The Full Moon On January third promises heightened spiritual awareness from family keepsakes and talismans as well as recollections of your earliest spiritual teachings.
FINANCE
A cycle of prosperity is enjoyed as the planet of blessings completes a conjunction with your Sun shortly after your birthday. A prosperity ritual performed at the New Moon on November 20 would be especially effective.
I think that’ll do for now. If anyone would like a forecast of a different sign, give me a ringy dingy. By the way, I should have a phone line here in the near future.
wing chong on the ching chong-hI-YAH! October 24, 2006
that’s right ladies and gentleman. it’s that time again, that magical time that happens every few months for a few months, it’s (drum roll please)-MERCURY IN RETROGRADE!!
DID YOU KNOW: Mercury turns retrograde more than any other planet?
During this time:
-rules change
-Take the roundabout route to approach situations from a different viewpoint.
-Matters ruled by the retrograde planet are impacted directly.
Mercury provides the most familiar and perhaps the most powerul of the retrograde cycles.
this time it will remain so from Oct 29-Nov18, but you wil be able to feel it now.
Stay in familiar places, with your homies, and tie up loose ends.
-Confirm appointments
-avoid making a move or beginning a new job or project while mercury is retro
-use care in signing contracts
-WONDERFUL TIME FOR PAST LIFE REGRESSION, GOING TO AN OLD HOUSE OR OLD HOME TOWN, VISITING ANTIQUE SHOPS, TALKING TO DEAD PEOPLE!!!!(I know that’s what I want to do. REALLY I DO)
-DE JA VU is frequent and often recurring.
have fun everyone. see you in our dreams, eh?
(or you can just intend the suspension of all dependency on astrological activity and FUGET ABOUDIT)
By the way. Today is the first day of SCORPIO-I happen to LOVE that sign and tend to enjoy the company of those born under it. New moon yesterday, hope it was good. Moon is IN scorpio this evening, as well as the sun, and so it shall remain until tomorrow. My almanac say to “recognize the scorpion”…….Whatup Scorpio? Much love to you, you little stinging, armored, fiery little thing you.
Praying for miracles. And seeing them everywhere. amen
This is no accident October 19, 2006
At this point in life, there are so many synchronicities occurring on a daily basis, I have no doubt that everything happening now is supposed to happen. You know, there are an infinite number of possibilities in everyones life at all points in time. Realizing this is a bit overwhelming to some extent, but I’ve found a vision of my own future for the first time ever. I meditate on manifesting the best potential for all infinity, and in that vision I see that there is only one possibity. In all of these possibilities, there is only one for us all. SOOOO, that’s where we’re all going, hang on and keep a positive attitude. Knowing this, I’m always exactly where I’m supposed to be.
As for personal baggage, I’ve heaped it into a pile on the front lawn, doused it with metaphorical gasoline and lit it. I have no other choice.
The house I thought I’d rented became a heap of issues, gas lines and plumbing……Looking at another today…..I’m running on a wing and a prayer, and whenever I catch myself drowning in self pity or blaming another for my situation I just go back to the many occurrences that seem to happen everyday, and remember that I’m right where I need to be. Keep the vibration as high as I can, that’s all I need to do, hold space and allow the miracles. amen. I’m not complaining, I don’t need to travel the world to understand how very blessed I am. amen again.
